__*UPDATES*__

Oct. 11, 2005

Ladies and Gentelmen, it is true. Silent-Shadow is MOVING ACCOUNTS!!! No more will the name silent-shadow be heard across DeviantART!!!! nOw!!! It is time for a new taste!! Meat Xraptor0rageX

:3 Yep, Im moving there. But I'll keep this account up! For future reference (for me and you x3)

Still not submitting pictures for awhile (unless its for a contest/club/gift art etc) Still worrying about school!!!

Welp, yeah! And my vaca continues!

Come see me at

~chick whos no longer silent-shadow

Oct. 09, 2005

Okay, some people misunderstood my leaving. Im leaving, but will still be visiting, to say hi. And I'll leave up the pictures I've done for people.

Oh, and I have gotten numerous notes saying to not take down the clubs. I wont but under one condition. You people will actually join them and help out!

Especially my sisters :iconfunkymonkeys: You gotta love monkeys!!

Yeah. And I wont submit new stuff unless theres a contest I want to do, even then dont expect an entry. I do what I want remember?

Yeah, so. See yA

(& i'll update once in awhile)

-free girl!

Oct. 08, 2005

Some of you may have noticed, my deviations are slowely dissapering. And my other things are gone...well. Thats because, Im leaving. Absolutly this time.

Im sorry, but I really dont feel safe here.

Check out these links to see what I mean.

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I know you may say "Well, its only happend a few times) Well look around. Is this seriously a good place for anyone? I am just not sure anymore. In fact, Im not sure about the internet anymore.

The internet is a great and powerful tool. But it can also be a very dangerous one.

What? You dont believe me. Simply go to an everyday search engine and type in one word and it can come up with a numerous amount of good and BAD things.

Sexualy graphic and eplict pornographic images are so easy to come by on the internet these days. Same with the anime Hentai. And its highly addictive, I can very much assure you. (why, because I have been there) And its so hard to get away from. The images on this site cant compare to art in my world. Pictures of people in sexual positions, inviting, and even children in the same way. Its outrageous!

Gore is also a major problem. Some people think, a little blood doesnt hurt, and thats very true. But some of the images I've seen on this site have absolutly appaled me! Images of bloody carcases, body parts strewn around the ground. I've seen pictures of people with needles stabbed into their face, pulling skin off of their body, blood flowing out of their mouth. I mean seriously, how can that be prounounced in art. "It happens everyday" Is the dumbest statement I have ever heard. People arent tearing apart their body EVER SINGLE DAY! I mean hell!! I guess thats what they do! I know most of its fake, but really!

I really fear alot especially for my little sister, so she is being removed as well. In fact, my family is gone. Were leaving, my clubs are done, and Im through. Black Cobra KOS will forever be a community project, but it doesnt need the internet to shine!

In fact, I often would rather the internet never be made! I know I wouldnt have met my friends from here. But, hell, at least I wouldnt fear for my life alot!

I'd most much rather talk to these people in person. The only people I even SLIGHTLY know is and . I have bought 2 commisions from sonitweek and find her to be very trustworthy. And I have known marit since FAC

But alot of you I dont.

Except for the ones in my here and now state





And thats all!!! Im sorry, its not like I wouldnt trust or but. I would more rather meet them and know them personally before I get to the trusting point!

I just want to live my life normally. And this site is so addicting! I kid you not and you cant tell me I lie. Think about it, if you have the chance, you know you would come and check everything out (messages, notes etc) instead of something else. Admit it!

This site just pulls people in. And it didnt start out that way. It kinda changed slowely from the beginning even when Jark was in power and then as soon as he was gone, this site became a hell-ride!

Ever since I began my time on DA, I've noticed I've slowely gotten more and more depressed, and I have often thought of suicide. I am afraid at night, and can barely sleep.

I fear for my family mostly, and everything else. And I dont want to be a part of it anymore!

Quite frankly, I think this sites very goal will soon be its downfall. And I couldnt care less. All its caused for me is heartache and pain. I've lost alot and gained little, except for appreciation for MY art.

And now I want to worry about MY art. Not everyone else's in the world. I want to draw what I WANT to draw, not what I think I should draw. I want to do what I want. I want to have fun. Do sports, hang with my friends, go on vacation!

It used to be when I did those things, I was always thinking "I cant wait to get home and check emails, DA, FAC, my website" Well, not anymore.

Those things arent as important to me! I want to be with my family! I love them dearly and I want them to know. I've been falling away from them, my values, my church, my friends!

Im done, through. Its absolutly over!

DA has done very little good for me and Im through!

I'll still draw, but it will be on my own time, when I want! I'll draw what I want, I'll have more fun drawing now, and it wont be such a burden (here that, drawing...a burden haha!)

Im going to sleep better, to do better things. Work on my personal Progress, be more proud to be a Mormon. Stop swearing, no more bad things! Im done! NO MORE DA!!! Ah, it feels so good to say that.

It'll take awhile to delet every deviation, but I intend to do it!

I still think I made great friendships, and if I really feel like it. I will get on and say hi.

I know my life will be so much better. And I will be happier.

You can try to change my mind. But its already made up. Im leaving and thats that! I wont change my mind, I wont submit art again! I just wont. I cant, its over!

The smile on my face is getting bigger every second. Im so glad to be gone, I'll miss you all, but trust me, I'll be happier. And I hope you'll be happier that I am happier!

Thanks for making DA fun my friends, and for those of you I hate or hate me or that submit horrible things, thank you for making me realize that DA really wasnt worth my pain :3 I <3 you all x3

Because the hell I have been going through is over! Its gone! IM FREE DAMNIT!!!

So, until a future day

Au reviour suckers x3

-past DA member, now a free girl!